Thursday, April 8, 2010
♥ wishful thinking.
i feel that as i get older, i become more antisocial. and it really isn't a bad thing at all.
i feel so disconnected with society and my peers. i hate the drama that my friends constantly have in their lives, i want nothing to do with it. i honestly feel like people can't relate to me, i like to think of myself as a one girl wolf pack lol :)
okay okay, on a serious note though, life isn't complicated, it really isn't. but i feel like people try to make it complicated. life is simple, trust me, i know it is. kids today care more about which parties they'll be going to and how drunk they can get. how is that any fun at all? i see no appeal in that at ALL.
i miss the time when my friends packed into my SUV, went to CVS, stocked up on junk food, headed to the park with our guitars and just had fun. we weren't distracted by who stabbed who in the back, or complaining about how hungover they were last weekend.
i feel like society pushes people to come to the point were they lose themselves. society breaks people down with no intention on building them back up. when i was younger, i cared so much about how people perceived me and i wanted so desperately to fit in.
but that's not the same anymore. i'm so extremely proud of the person i am today, i have no intentions of fitting in.
i used to hate the feeling of being disconnected to my peers, but today i accept the fact that i'm different. i just wish that other people didn't care so much and didn't try so hard to be something that they're not.
everyday i watch my friends forget who they are, and that's one of the hardest things to witness. when you forget who you are, who lose yourself. and sometimes, something so simple as "finding" yourself, can be an extremely hard task.
i never thought i'd come to the point where being alone would make me happier then being with a large group of people. life doesn't always have to be moment after moment, trying to fight to stay above ground. life is SO short, and there's no guarantee's in life at all. well i take that back, the only guarantee in life is death and you don't want to come to the point when death is knocking on your door and you have no choice but to answer, and when life was banging on your door, you didn't even give life it's chance to shine.
make sense?
i feel so disconnected with society and my peers. i hate the drama that my friends constantly have in their lives, i want nothing to do with it. i honestly feel like people can't relate to me, i like to think of myself as a one girl wolf pack lol :)
okay okay, on a serious note though, life isn't complicated, it really isn't. but i feel like people try to make it complicated. life is simple, trust me, i know it is. kids today care more about which parties they'll be going to and how drunk they can get. how is that any fun at all? i see no appeal in that at ALL.
i miss the time when my friends packed into my SUV, went to CVS, stocked up on junk food, headed to the park with our guitars and just had fun. we weren't distracted by who stabbed who in the back, or complaining about how hungover they were last weekend.
i feel like society pushes people to come to the point were they lose themselves. society breaks people down with no intention on building them back up. when i was younger, i cared so much about how people perceived me and i wanted so desperately to fit in.
but that's not the same anymore. i'm so extremely proud of the person i am today, i have no intentions of fitting in.
i used to hate the feeling of being disconnected to my peers, but today i accept the fact that i'm different. i just wish that other people didn't care so much and didn't try so hard to be something that they're not.
everyday i watch my friends forget who they are, and that's one of the hardest things to witness. when you forget who you are, who lose yourself. and sometimes, something so simple as "finding" yourself, can be an extremely hard task.
i never thought i'd come to the point where being alone would make me happier then being with a large group of people. life doesn't always have to be moment after moment, trying to fight to stay above ground. life is SO short, and there's no guarantee's in life at all. well i take that back, the only guarantee in life is death and you don't want to come to the point when death is knocking on your door and you have no choice but to answer, and when life was banging on your door, you didn't even give life it's chance to shine.
make sense?
6:41 PM
